DIARY

Dear Diary – Life with Depression – Thoughts – Gratitude Moments

Desiderata

Desiderata

Go placidly amidst the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons,(…)

stigma of mental illness

stigma of mental illness

Mental illness is just that: Illness. We often forget that. There is always suffering with pain, but with the type of anguish that mental illness brings, pain takes on a sometimes more sinister feeling. I might suffer some pain if I break my leg, but it will eventually heal and I will walk again without(…)

Overwhelming

Overwhelming

Why can’t I just be “normal” and not feel all of these overwhelming feelings? Why can’t I just act like the way other people do and be “happy” or at least pretend I am? I am in a constant battle between who I think I am, who I want to be, and what others want(…)

It doesn’t Matter

It doesn’t Matter

You are unique.  Every person living in the world is unique. We are all humans. Yet we have different shades of skin tones, body shapes, eye colors, hair texture, etc. The differences on the outside also exist in the inside, how the nerves communicate with each other, how food is processed, size of bones, etc.(…)

Vicious Cycle

Vicious Cycle

It becomes a vicious cycle. Depression hits.  I feel weak and detached.  I don’t want to eat, walk, or talk. No appetite leads to poor nutrition hence fatigue, irritability, … Staying in bed leads to poor circulation, weakness, … Not socializing leads to anxiety, fear, … Now the focus isn’t where it began. Now it’s(…)

Mind is Racing

Mind is Racing

My mind is racing, it won’t stop.  It races in the morning, afternoon, and night.  I’m exhausted…….no sleep in days, how unhealthy for recovery can this be for you?  How familiar does this sound?  How do I fix and get myself out of this funk called “negativity”?  How do I get the power to control(…)

The pretending begins…

The pretending begins…

Please visit the link below, the artist created this work based on lyrics to a song. They say every person looks at an art piece and seeks to understand by finding a way to relate.  I immediately saw myself some years ago when the depression began.  Beautiful, independent, hard working woman with a dark secret(…)

Mental illness cannot be seen under a microscope

Mental illness cannot be seen under a microscope

“I’ve got some issues that nobody can see…” It seems easy for society to have compassion or acceptance for a person diagnosed with … cancer in need for chemotherapy a headache in need to take aspirin the flu in need of bed rest But a mental illness in need of antidepressants, ECT, or disability …(…)

Afraid of the Light

Afraid of the Light

When you see visual artwork, it’s human to make some sense of it.  A meaning or interpretation that is obvious or even deeper in relating to oneself.  The same can be done with music. It amazes me when I understand or feel a certain way to a song while listening and realize how different it(…)

Time will Heal

Time will Heal

  Better in Time – Leona Lewis I love this song and all that it represents: “It’s gonna hurt when it heals too” “It’s time I let you go So I can be free” “No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you” “It’ll all get better in time” Letting go.  Change.  Acceptance.(…)