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I have experienced multiple hospitalizations, multiple medication changes to find the right “cocktail” for my chemistry which alone has been very frustrating.  I have been judged by people who I never imagined would turn their backs on me.  The feeling of loneliness is unexplainable.  The dark thoughts have been so dark that I questioned whether or not the battle was worth fighting for many times.  The pain inflicted on my family has been devastating.  The guilt I have punished myself with has been over powering at times.  Unfortunately, there is no quick fix.  I often question how many people would be so judgmental, if I had cancer and how different there reactions would have been.

Through years of therapy, I believe that I am finally getting to the point of acceptance which I believe is one of the biggest steps one can make in this situation.  I plan on continuing my therapy with the simple reason that with every session I learn something new, whether it be a coping skill or just how to handle difficult people in general.  I will continue to get as much education from my experience as possible simply to be capable to help others, know they are not alone no matter how lonely one can feel at times.